I guess it happens to everyone at some point...maybe women are just more aware of it than men...but I don't think anyone is ever really prepared for it.
I'm talking about that single moment in which you look in the mirror and don't recognize the person looking back. I had that moment just now, in the bathroom of the nursing building. I looked up from washing my hands (while singing Happy Birthday, to make sure I washed long enough...I'm such a dork) and was almost frightened by the reflection. Bags under my eyes, lines in places that didn't used to have lines, a deer-in-the-headlights look in my eyes, and really poorly-styled hair that needs a good cut. This semester has really taken a toll on me, I guess. It's a good thing that nursing school is preparing me to make good money because I'm going to need it to start doing more self-maintenance.
I just handed in an essay that will count for a good chunk of my grade for the summer. I have to say, while everyone else has been freaking out about having to write a 5-page paper (which is NOT a big deal), and making sure their APA format is correct, I actually really enjoyed the assignment. The topic of the paper was not one I would have chosen myself, but the task of writing is one that I know I can complete...I am confident in my ability to write, especially when I have time to draft and revise. The essay was probably one of the first assignments this summer that I actually felt certain I could and would earn a good grade on. It is nice to finally find a piece of nursing school I know I can do well.
I'm almost done for the summer...one more week, and then I have a few weeks of vacation to relax, recoup, and re-energize. "I think I can, I think I can, I think I can," said the little blue engine...
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Maria, I know that your skills mastery is today and I hope it's going well...and you'll be able to breathe and relax in a few hours. You can do this...and the hospital where you eventually work will be a much better place because you're there.
On a funnier? note, I look in the mirror and see the same thing...gray hairs, extra me, and less naivete, and I wonder where in the world I've gone...and if I'll ever get back there again. You aren't alone...
After teaching for 6 years, I am stopping to stay home with our girls, and I don't regret it at all. Teacher days start at my old school system and KY and I am relieved that I am not there. I also look in the mirror and almost don't recognize myself, but that is also good. I am growing in so many ways. Some ways I want to reverse, and other ways I am looking forward to.
Good luck with the end of your semester!!
Maria and Nate,
August 7th was yesterday! You made it thru this session! Keep going - you can do it. I believe in you more than ever before. Stay in touch and let me know where God's will is leading you. Prof. Miller
Nathan,
Congrats on earning our degree today. I was in Marion to play for the commencements. Prof.M
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