October 28, 2005

God does have a sense of humor...

Every once in a while I am reading along in the Bible and come across some phrase that just strikes me as hilarious. I've found I am usually the only one who sees the random humor in it, but just in case, I thought I'd post one such example today. This is from Jonah 2:5, as Jonah is giving this long, dramatic prayer to the Lord, recalling his circumstances in the fish and his deliverance from said location. I just picture him being so wrapped up in his retelling, much like a really excited I'm-trying-to-be-serious-and-you-laughing-at-me toddler would be in retelling how fast he went down the slide or something. And if I'd been there when Jonah was reliving his experience, I for sure would have wrecked the mood by busting out in laughter when he got to this part:

"The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head."

Hahahahaha...I'm picturing a turban of seaweed plastered to his head...hahahahha

October 27, 2005

I am in LOVE!!!

I'm in deep. My feelings of love and desire are growing greater everyday, intensifying with each interaction. Sometimes my heart seizes upon sight and I am rendered speechless, overwhelmed with awe and amazement coupled with humility and the understanding I am in love with one from a higher social status than I...it is a classic fairytale romance and I am the lowly servant girl in love with the dashingly handsome...Chevy Trail Blazer.

Yep, it's pretty bad. Nate will testify to it...I am CONSTANTLY watching for them as we drive down the road, plastering my face to the window when I see one and staring after it until it is out of sight. It's rediculous, really, but I'm being completely honest here. I love them. I want one. I dream of them day and night and spend time thinking how I could possibly ever afford one.

Naturally, this would all worsen during this current time of financial stress. I'm not writing this to evoke feelings of sympathy from you, trying to woo you into sending us a sizeable check. I am just making the statement that Satan in not wasting his opportunity to try to convince me that what I can't have is better than everything I do have...for sure not a new tactic. Just call me Eve, huh?

Anyway, this morning in my devotions I was reading through the Psalms and the end of the 27th caught my heart (it usually does...that's why it's underlined in my Bible): "Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." It sounds so poetic and romantic and it just stirs up this sense of strength and loyalty in my mind...but my heart has trouble following suit. I still worry. I lose sleep at night wondering why getting a job is taking so freaking long, how much longer we can go on what we saved up from the summer, how I can cut back in our grocery bill and other sacrifices we can make...I don't think there is anything wrong with those thoughts specifically; it is the attitude behind them that is wrong. It's not trusting. It's not being strong or taking heart or waiting patiently. It's not being content in any and every situation. It's not in line with a host of other Biblical principles, which ought to be sending up red flags of concern rather than green streaks of envy.

I confess I do not like being in this spot. I feel like I shouldn't have to be struggling financially right now. I've always managed my money well so I wouldn't have to be in this place, yet here I am. I feel cheated out of a "better life," whatever that is supposed to mean, and like it is asking too much of me to put me through this right now. I am such a weenie! I KNOW these times are meant to deepen my walk with the Father and that because I am His child, everything that happens in my life He will use for good, but I still struggle to walk through it with a good attitude. I still want the Trail Blazer I can't afford because there are other stupid bills to pay.

By the way, according to Kelly Blue Book, a 2002 model (the first model out) in decent condition with 100,000 miles on it is going for about $14,000 right now. You may make your checks out for any ammount. :)

October 14, 2005

We're home!!

We are just finishing our first week back in Marion...it is good to be home! It's been so great catching up with friends and meeting neighbors and just getting back into the swing of life here. We have so many people to reconnect with that we have shared a meal with someone every day since we got here, which is so cool! Our apartment is starting to look normal (by normal I mean a low packed box to unpacked box ratio) and we are actually planning to start painting it this weekend already. Crazy!

We are both still looking for jobs, but I (Maria) am spending my mornings babysitting for the family we rent from...Todd is SO cute and so fun to hang out with...definitely watch for pictures to come!

Anyway, we just wanted to catch you all up and let you know we are still alive and functioning; blogging has just sort of taken a back burner for now. :) Have a great day, everyone!